The process begins

Fast forward, and here we are having had the first meeting with our social worker recently.
And we've had our medical examinations with the GP - weighed, measured, wee sample, prodding, questioning - all that stuff!  
So our process is finally starting.... wow, we are finally getting going with the adoption approval process.  It seems unreal - almost "out of body" type experience.
From now on, for the coming six months or so, we will spend many hours and days reflecting on our lives - history and present - asking questions of ourselves and finding out more about who we are.  Who we are and the kind of parents we might become.  Because one day, we really might become parents.
And that is what I have to focus on - the family at the end of all this digging and delving.  Remember what we are in this for - so that we might have our own family.  So that we might hear the laughter of children through the rooms of our house.
That's what this is for.  
All the questioning, answering, form filling.  All the anguish and emotional turmoil (which is sure to happen - there's no delving into the past without some emotional baggage being shaken loose...).
So from today onward, that's my focus.... being a parent.  Being a mother.  Having the opportunity to nurture and support children growing up in this world. 
I am scared.  I am like a rabbit in the headlights.  But I am excited - so very excited.  Because finally, finally, we are on the way to family life........ happy.
Here goes, hold hands and.... JUMP!

In the Beginning

At the very beginning, page one of the adoption process.
We've waited a year to reach this point, but that's another story - finally here we are - slowly and surely moving towards family life.
A family!
That's why we are on this journey - to have a family of our own. We know it will be a tough road leading up to adoption and sure as can be, it will get really tough once the child or children arrive.
But we were both born to be parents. Both certain from a young age that parenthood was where we wanted to be.
Way back then, we didn't know each other. In fact we only found each other in the last decade, after we'd both had previous, childless, marriages. If only I'd found my lovely Captain W when I was in my twenties - we'd have our own birth children, if not grandchildren by now!
But when you only discover each other in your forties, sure as the sky is blue, you know that your chances of birth children are, at most, remote.
We tried the natural route to conception and we tried IVF too - they didn't work. And by now, we are ready to adopt a child or children in need of a safe, stable and loving home.
So here we are!
Starting out!
Bring on the Social Workers! Bring on the Searches!
We're ready and waiting to go all the way..... to become a family.

I hope you'll pop back often to see how we're getting along... and in case you're wondering, this blog is Anonymous - my fictitious name is taken from a Jane Austen book. By being anonymous I can tell you all there is to tell about our journey....

See you soon!
Anne Elliott